Apathy

In the never-ending conflict between material desires and fulfilment of the heart, I've come across common ground where both will be completely dissatisfied, yet neutralised - apathy. Strangely, it is a natural opposite to both forces which makes it just dandy; killing two birds with one stone, really. This is not uncharted territory, nor is it feared. But regardless of what it is or what it ain't, it doesn't really matter. Right now, I couldn't care less.

Breaking free from the drop-outs of Unwired, I'm beginning to realise my true leeching potential. Frasier, Will & Grace, um John Waite's - Missing You - I've got them! The next installment of past sitcoms, or tunes that will inevitably be given my disgraceful treatment at Karaoke World, are all I look forward to, because they are finite and last a lifetime. Few things in this world fit such criteria.

Box

I, like everybody else in Sydney who didn't want to get fined, stood by a flimsy cardboard booth with a stupidly large piece of paper at hand sometime last month. Unlike most, however, I didn't give mine much thought, nor did I complete it 'properly'. After all, how can I take an activity like voting seriously when one of the nine parties is named The Fishing Party.

It was around this time that a new employee begun work at my office and I was, and still am, in charge of training her. It's amazing how ambiguous a short, emailed introduction from the CEO can be when he described her as 'experienced'. So far, the only signs of experience I've witnessed are her wrinkles. Despite working in several dubious institutions in my time, I don't think I've met anyone less proactive, or with a lower IQ, than this woman. In retaliation, I've waged a silent war against the corporation by refusing to answer any fucking obvious questions from this woman (are the client files in the filing cabinets?) and by forwarding the most difficult clients to her. It's petty I know, but it feels so right!

A month ago I left a family that had helped me for so long. It's one of the few things that I actually care about, and it breaks my heart every time I think about it. Like right now.