And Around
Listening To: Josh Rouse - And Around
I can identify the lowest point, I can identify the points when it looked like the episode was over but I've never been able to pin-point exactly how and when it started, and I don't know if it will ever end. I've tried pegging it to different measures - how much I weigh, how many activities I'm involved in, how many close friends come to my aid, the Dow, the ratings of the Opposition Leader on a two party-preferred vote - but I can't seem to find anything else quite so unstable and incomplete. I'll have to look into quicksand.
I've turned to History for answers, but all it tells me is that I've moved around a lot before and that I wish for nothing more than to establish. I've turned to Geography and connected all the dots of all the places I have been to and have lived in before, and when connected it took a lot of imagination and rotation to forcedly see anything. It was a pattern of a serial criminal or an obscure constellation. But then again, aren't they all? Check out Caelum if you don't believe me. How the fuck is that a chisel?. I've turned to English and Literature, and all I found were circles in plot holes, revolutions, seasonal changes and protagonists returning home. A shape that is impossible to draw freehand.
Maybe my view is askew, that shapes and patterns and cycles etc will always behave their way, and that I shouldn't be using such fickle things as measure. But they change, and that's all I really want to do.
